From the monthly archives:

December 2010

Lots of things going on in here…

by lulujane on December 4, 2010

As I say `Lots of thinking going on in here..` I am tapping on my right temple with the middle finger on my right hand, the finger next to the finger that wears my nice gold cameo ring.

Every morning I check my iGoogle home page for words of wisdom.  I already have lots of them, know lots of them, often writing down the ones that ring true for me.  And, on a moment`s notice in an appropriate situation I can conjure up and quote my favourites as if I am expert.

Today`s offering from iGoogle is `This one step – choosing a goal and staying to it – changes everything.` (Right now I am frustrated with my computer putting an apostrophe when I want a quote mark, and my wisdom is telling me to ignore it – that it doesn`t really matter. And in the grand scheme of things, I know it doesn`t matter, so on I go.)

Speaking of `this one step`… quite often for me, I know the wisdom in taking an important step, is in choosing to remain still, until I feel that the moment is right.  And that is MY bit of wisdom for this day – December 4, 2010. Maybe that is why I am choosing to ignore my present issue with the quote marks.

My bit of wisdom from yesterday, December 3, is that I don`t want to count birthdays anymore – henceforth, I shall be, and I am 55 years of age.  Even this is much older than I feel, but the double 5`s sound nice rolling off my tongue and they look pretty standing beside each other. I am thinking that each year adding a year to my age can make me feel older than I feel, older than I actually am in my mind, body and heart.  Stating my age to someone who doesn`t know me can also influence how others feel when they relate to something, or make a judgment about a number. So, no more getting out the calculator to deduct my birth year from the current year, to give me an increasingly larger result.  When my children`s ages start to overlap mine, then I might have to rethink this, but for now, 55 is a darned good thing.

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Happiness is ….

by lulujane on December 1, 2010

Greg Oct 10 (11)

I can remember a time when, driving to work one day, I felt  a sense of calm, peace that gave me joy.  It happened unbidden, and I took time to observe and savour it.  I wanted to hold onto it because of the feeling of well being that I was experiencing in the stillness of the moment.  It was just momentary, small in terms of my time clock, but the significance of it was large. It made me aware that for me, this was a unique feeling; the peacefulness and calm.

At some times in our lives we are busy – things to do, schedules to keep, other people to consider, trying to make other people happy, multiple responsibilities – that creates stress.  And carrying this feeling of stress becomes our norm.  For me, it was when I had this peaceful moment in time, that I realized how seldom I felt relaxed and at peace.

As the years have moved along, as my life has become less complicated, I have had many similar experiences which have been much more frequent and longer lasting.  Thankfully, this has become my norm.

During this past week a few things that were scheduled, vaporized from my calendar, leaving me with lots of uncommitted time on my hands.  This morning as I sipped my morning coffee, did my Sudoku puzzle, checked email and twitter, etc. I became aware of how happy I felt inside.  Not a ha ha type of happiness, but a sense of smiling without really smiling, glowing from the inside out.  Quite a few hours later this is still with me.

I realize that there are likely many people around who never experience this.

And I am grateful.