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Life’s miracles

by lulujane on March 22, 2009

On Monday she had an eye exam.  Krista had been wearing glasses for about two years and recently complained to her mother that she was having problems seeing.  On the day of the exam the doctor reported that her vision had deteriorated three steps.  With an updated prescription she went home with a new pair of glasses.  “I can see again”.

On the next day, Tuesday, concerns about her excessive thirst took her to a medical clinic and following tests she was directed to a local hospital’s Emergency Department. This long day was a combination of waiting, tests, more waiting, no food, and more tests.  The diagnosis – Type 1 Diabetes.

Krista turned 14 two weeks before.  She is a beautiful young girl, inside and out.  At the hospital that day hunger dictated by fasting periods for blood work were frustrating.  Her tummy was aching, she was tired and this made her angry.  Having been poked and prodded throughout the day she went home that night with instructions to return in the morning for more blood work to determine blood glucose levels, etc.  More fasting.  In the morning the doctor arrived later than the appointment time and then requested more blood work necessitating a longer fasting period.  Her mom told me that as long as Krista is fed she is fine, so the long periods without eating were hard on her.

dsc_0059xThe greatest portion of the day on Wednesday was teaching and instruction which included body science/biological functions, dietary information,  how to give insulin injections, how to pick her finger and take blood glucose readings. How to adjust the amount of insulin to the blood glucose reading, etc.  This young woman was amazing in her courageous and frustrated acceptance of  being diabetic, and the focused attention she gave to the wonderful nurse educator who walked her through this day with compassion and understanding.

Over the next few days, and continuing even now is expanded and reinforcing instruction with a hospital clinic and staff who are always accessible and only two blocks from home.

This is where I have to mention the angel.  Krista had been experiencing noticeable excessive thirst for a period of about ten days.  On the Friday prior to the Tuesday hospital admission a classmate sitting across from her commented that he noticed she was drinking a lot of fluid.  He told her that he is diabetic.  She didn’t know this.  When she got home from school that day she mentioned it to her mother, who had also noticed this change in behaviour.  Krista had no outward signs of being sick and it was this red flag that got her early treatment.  Her classmate was an angel.

On the weekend I stopped by her house to see how Krista was doing and she wasn’t wearing her glasses.  I questioned why.  She told me “because now I can see”.  It felt like a miracle to me.

Our bodies are amazing machines. In our teaching sessions we were told that diabetes progresses over a period of time, around two years before it may be diagnosed.  Two years ago she got her first pair of glasses.  The nurse/educator told us that as the body works to compensate the decreasing ability of the pancreas to function normally it withdraws moisture from other parts of our body.  This can affect vision.  She also mentioned that once the body is working more normally under the insulin protocol, vision may improve.

The biggest ongoing miracle of all is my granddaughter Krista who walks with courage, acceptance, determination  and grace.

Post script:  A few weeks later Krista was wearing her glasses.  When I asked about it, she told me that the positive change in her vision had been temporary.


Shift in Perception

by lulujane on December 19, 2008

It is said that the miracle is in our shift in perception.

I remember my early days of active photography.  I thought my photographs were incredibly wonderful.  When I look at these now I am embarrassed that I excitedly touted them around showing them to friends and family.  I am grateful that they didn’t burst my balloon and  I am glad that I perceived them that way initially because that is what kept me at it and moved me forward.

My vision, the way I see the world, often the way I choose to see the world, is my perception of it.  As I tiptoe through the tulips so to speak, I silently ask to be shown the beauty.  And I do find it.  I believe it is the same in the people we meet.  By opening my heart and asking to see it, it is revealed to me.  This makes me a softer, gentler, more accepting person.

As human beings, when we make judgments about others, it doesn’t say so much about them as it does about us.  If we choose to hold a negative opinion or a grudge and seize it tightly so that no one an wrench it from us, it holds us back. It keeps us stuck.  Holding firmly to the belief that we are superior or right and the other person is wrong leaves no room for negotiation. No space to breathe.  No way to escape. We become imprisoned.

I  had the personal experience of praying for a solution to an uncomfortable working relationship.  And then one day, totally out of the blue I had peace around it.  Where once I saw him as a jerk, and names worse that I won’t write here, I began to see the other person as a good man and became his friend.

Oddly enough, after I stopped fixating on what an awful person I believed him to be, I also learned to detach from outcome of the things in my job that I felt I had to control.  I see this as a big life lesson and appreciate the connection I had with him because ‘I got it’. My willingness to want peace around my daily interactions with this gentleman surprisingly gave me the gift of letting go of my need to control.

It is said that the miracle is in our shift of perception.